24 on 23rd

Mind has been blocked down after too much thinking.
Just want to lift up, move on.
I can be a silent giant.
I no more before a change.

It is time to start again.
I demand it to myself.

8

Seventh of the Seventh, which makes Eight... 8

Happy? Nope! Glad and content maybe, as almost always. And ready for whatever about to come, even if dead would be. Ready indeed!

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Changing the subject, and making a very important parenthesis, I'd like to congratulate Gerardo and Willie (Sorry, thought was William), for their Anniversary, and most definitely, to Gerardo, for his Birthday tomorrow! Hope you are good and happy now, fatherfucker! Hahaha, with all my affection to you both! Feliz Cumple!
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I'm getting tired of be waiting, life's too short!

And, I'll dismiss myself here, yep!

I felt like seduced by a caress...
And it felt great.

Bajona

Cada vez se vuelve más intenso el golpe, pero dura menos. Pareciera que el cuerpo se inyecta químicos automaticámente y a propósito, con la única intensión de hacerte sentir mal.

Pero, al carajo, ¿Qué no?

Mr. Chaos

Ultimamente, las vidas de personas que me importan mucho se han visto dentro de un caós muy conocido por mi, que ha tendido a repetirse constantemente en los ultimos años. Definitivamente la Ley de Murphy y su corolario se aplica en todo esto, y eso me hace sentir bien, de algún modo.

Y si, mi vida también es un pequeño caós. Me estoy dando cuenta que lo mejor que puedo hacer es ayudar, y tal vez lo único, así como dar la vida para que mi gente se dé cuenta (en especial dos personas) de que los sacrificios son buenos, ayudan y son importantes, marcan un cambio y hacen una diferencia. Esto debe sonar a martirio, pero no lo es, es una cuestión muy personal que se ha convertido en meta y estoy dispuesto a hacer.

It was like if the Universe's hands were drowning the moon into liquid darkness.
Astonishly beautiful!

¡Feliz 24 Aniversario!

¡Cytlali, Feliz Cumpleños y Excelente Día! Te deseo desde aquí que sea tranquilo, que te dé para arriba y de cierto modo te haga sentir contenta, si no es que feliz! Ya verás que de aquí en adelante todo será para bien, como siempre ha sido aunque no lo notemos. Podrán pasar muchas cosas pero teniendo la fortaleza para volver a empezar, todo se puede! Mantente preparada para todo lo que venga, las vidas plenas son de aquellos que se aventuran, arriesgan y sufren cayendose en algún momento... La idea es que por más mal que creamos que estén o se sientan las cosas siempre habrá algo mejor o peor, pero al final, sin darnos cuenta, todo estará bien.

Luego, Sábado y Domingo bien chingones, no me la pasaba así desde quién sabe cuando, hace ya bastante tiempo. A parte bebimos muy agusto, fue colectivo y la diversión fue reciproca. Pura pinche risión de la buena, comida rica (sobre todo esos bollitos y omelette, al putazo!) y hasta un poco de adrenalina, powered by Emmanuel. Fin de semana chingón! Gracias, y Felicidades de Nuevo!

Casually tricky

I think that to let a fool kiss you is stupid, but to let a kiss fool you is worse.

There's no happy ending, it's just everything changing.

Awakening

"Though we deem the captive dead, yet does she live. For her seed is my seed and her voice is my voice. And she sees unto the farthest reaches of possibility. Yea, unto the vale of the unknowable does she see because of me."

Sueños raros

He caminado muchas veces por la noche desde las casas de amigos, muy lejos de la mia, pero está es la primera vez que siento que no fue una perdida de tiempo en lo más mínimo.


Habrá que mover los "muebles" del cuarto.
Ya no es cómodo.

By foot

As I've said in this blog, it feels really good to wander around the city during the night.

Specially when moon's UP!

Lately, as you can read in my previous entries, I've had a lot of dreams where I fly, since almost 2 months now. It happens very often, but the subject of the dream always changes.

Some people have told me that it means that I'm gonna die, or wanna die. Mother told me that it means I want and need freedom. I think that it only means that I actually just wanna fly.



But there's only one being that can make me feel like I can fly, and I haven't met her yet.

Felicia Day

Handsome little geek-chick!

Another point of view

I laid down on the concrete step outside of the house, and then whatched those unpaintable branches of the fire tree, showered by the yellow electric light of the city and the silver one from the moon. Little white twin stars upon my eyes, floating high into a night blue canvas, becoming darker with the height, thus universal. Dogs barking, cocks shouting and crickets singing their nature out, making me know that sometimes the persective we see the world with, is more important than the world itself.

Everything changes, but doesn't make us different, we just change along. Acting is the difference, so we better make the best out of it.

Yes

HAPPY 6 MONTHS!

Yes, it is sarcasm.

Four Four Four

Properties of Number 444

Symbolism
* The first divine woman.

General
* Length in "mir" cubits of the "Temple of the Beauty" built in Egypt 11 thousand years before J.-C. According to the medium Edgar Cayce, very few vestiges of this temple would be found in the future.

Gematria
* Number of Lilith, female demon of Assyrian legend.
* "The Tables" of the law, in Hebrew, lou'hot, gives as numerical value 444: lamed, waw, heth, tav; 30+6+8+400 = 444.
* By using as the correspondence table A=6, B=12..., we find that "Jesus" and the French words "Dieu Un" ("God One") give 444.

Occurrence
* The word «queen» is used 44 times in the OT and 4 times in the NT, giving 444 by concatenation.

Also, in Number Sequences

* 444 - This sign from your Spirit Guides signifies their disagreement with your thoughts and feelings and can be interpreted as a Cosmic 'No!' to questions you have asked or ideas you may have.

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There is a very important person that has direct and constant conection with this number. Trying to find out what the dreams I've had mean I thought about her and recalled all the times she mentioned the 444 and the times I happened to watch it with her, "Look, there it is again!" she would say, "Yup, always at the same hour" I would reply... Thus, I hope she reads this and find it helpful. I found it helped by her.

There may be a lot of meanings for this number or sequence, and as a matter of fact by writing with some ammount of innocence "Meaning of 444" in google the previous appeared. You can check more out here, there's a LOT of info and experiences there.

This symbol doesn't displays frecuently to me, and it seems, by self experience that every person that has contact with it's at some point through the clock. In this case mine would be more like 5:55, which I happen to look every once in a while... When it's about numbers, my mind likes to do series of five or jump from five to five, so it works with pairs only when I catch it in a good mood.

555 In Number Sequences

* 555 - When you see this sign a life changing thought or event has just occurred. You may not like it, or you may. Whatever the case your Spirit Guides are notifying you that a change in your life path direction has just occurred and it is time for you to change too. Move with it, follow these thoughts.

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Lately my thoughts have been moving so wildly that I cannot figure out exactly what's going on, besides of all I have to deal in my outside life, my dreamtime has been very active as well. I keep dreaming that I fly almost daily, and it's getting more real every time. Dreamt with babies too, or with people having babies, but specifically with births. The baby coming out of the womb still inside the bag or with a part of it sticked on their faces. Asked mom and said that I born under fetal suffering 'cause the font broke and she didn't have the contractions due her lack of experience, and pain, so when I was pulled out the bag was still over me and the doctors got scared 'cause it wouldn't let me cry and as consequence, breathe, they hid me from her and cleaned me and put me into the heat machine. She asked about future problems I could have, due the time I took to breathe, brain stuff or so, and the doctor said "He is a healthy but special boy, he's gonna have atention troubles through his life or can be either hyperactive or very tranquil and silent, but he'll be fine. Anyway, you are a special education teacher, right?"... Since there you were good, she said.

I know that when a scorpion stings me it doesn't hurt, not even a bit, apparently 'cause mom got stung by one when I was inside of her. I born at october 23Rd, the doctor's day in Mexico, among a whole floor of only female baby births. I know that when I was barely 2 months I got a severe pneumonia, but I got through it. I broke my right elbow but it welded back normally. I got a fool fracture in my right ankle which still hurts. I fell and got a surgeon on the right side of my face, but wasn't that bad. So now, trying to find out what am I gonna do from now on with my life, I feel kind of lost and oddly deep within like there's something greater that I have to achieve or help to get achieved. What? Where? When? Who? These are sort of the mindbreakers, because I really don't like to look out for meanings, but I hope there are.

I probably don't want answers or to understand this right now, I just wanna realize the purpose.

High

When I was a kid and used to dream while I slept, I frequently had a dream, or a dreamspot that I could never explain while conscious, because it was a great odd five-senses-experience trip. While I grew up, the dream diminished its frequency, until it stopped. Now that I don’t have it, and happened to "smoke" once, I think that the effect fills the hollow of that unexplainable and beautiful oddity.

Also, when it sent me high, my mind tricked me words while writing, like right now. Night instead of like and some other stuff. This effect makes me just remember when Anthony Burgess said that to smoke a joint helped him to write, immediately thinking to myself that all those tricky words sent to him by his mind, were the ones that started all his famous sentences and quotes, shaping whole stories.

Her Morning Elegance by Oren Lavie

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND!

Today is the Birthday of one of the biggest and greatest persons I have had the grace to know. As a matter of fact, she found me and changed my life for good and the best. No exaggerations in this, our bond was trong.

24 years ago, one of the beautifulest creatures came alive to achieve a bunch of things and change a lot of lifes. I know that I am writing here with the love I feel towards her, so I might sound too stubborn. But indeed I loved her, and I am not ashamed.

The only reason of a fall is to learn how to lift ourselves up.

I write this today to remember a huge date for me due this anniversary of life, and to count 24 springs of a gorgeous blooming silver light.

I send you my hugs, dear Cora, and I wish that your Birthday, letting out all the hardships, bit of sorrow and kind of heartache, is gentle with you. I really do wish it! As I wish I could be there, or you were here!


Hail the new age, and the many years to come!
Because indeed the best is yet to be!


Be well!

This is not the end!

This is not the end, I tell to myself. She told to me the same, and she meant it. I am eternally grateful with her. That is the truth.

I am very sad, I must admit, but moved by will alone indeed, the will of create the future I want, and help the people I love, specially her, to create hers. I really wish that I could pray and ask to god or the universe or nature or whatever that controls this time and space machine, that everything works out for us, because I really want it to work. I wanted to be with her, I wanted her, and I wanted a life with her. However, not all depends on me, and there I must accept and let go.

Love make us be happy, make us feel joy, and sorrow, allow us to grow, and it doesn't need that we believe in it, it is just there...

Indeed, love is a dangerous angel.

Purpose?

I have been thinking, y'all know, giving some action to the muscle up there, and I have kind of concluded that the only purpose of life is to get things done. Ya know what I mean and afirm, do ya? Yup, the already known.

Pretty nasty uh? Annoying pain in the ass this little unconcious purpose, isn't it? And it is the only one that moves us :)

We can also get into the "causality ideal", and the "first think, then exist", or "what am I doing here but complete this world as it completes me?", but only straightly thinking in actions, we born to complete what we begin there, or in other words, to make our life be done.

We came out of the womb and began breathing, there we started our first duty, keep ourselves alive, until we fulfill the process and get it done. We study, get better or good, or not, but don't stop until it is done, or as consecuence, get into something else to fulfill. We throw a rock or do a fire, so we change something, and get that something done.

This little speech of mine, which I try to explain and do not understand completely, creates the idea that diying with a lot of undone things would be very sad.



Get a grip on yourself Pablo, would ya?

The Life, Universe and Everything I

"We don't have to save the world. The world is big enough to look after itself. What we have to be concerned about is whether or not the world we live in will be capable of sustaining us in it."

The Pretaker?

Después de un par de minutos de decidia y usando el poder comparativo (que no siempre es atinado), y de una larga busqueda, encontré a estos dos que si pueden dar un buen tiro.
Ustedes dirán.

PS: Buen año para todos.